Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Davis Loop (first step)

Spinning around downtown and the houses, enjoying The Davis Loop's people scenery and the like, zoning out under dehydration from previous calorie expenditures, exhausted and worn thin, not from harm but from love, not aware of my present description, longing for my hunger to subside, looking ahead in time, denying my immediate past and long overripe drifted memories, succumbing to the authority of a circumference of thought, long awaited, delirious but ready, lose enough to perceive everything hidden; i look inside myself.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Expression (an introduction)

Expression is difficult. It takes keen insight from inside oneself to even begin trying, because many express but few express themselves. Such people are few and far between regarding right course of action, but most if not all on some level are faking. Even if subject (A) is not aware he is faking, he is faking his true self.
Self reflection is like walking through a thorny patch of roses. Cuts will happen before any perfume reaches the nose, and if one waits to long to delve or dive the necessary deep, one will experience a rotting devoit of any beauty. Too much reflection constitutes inauthenticity (see Sartre Being and Nothingness), but too little is something else entirely. The less and less one reflects, the less one is fully conscious of his or her experience. One must be aware of the lenses one see's through, because none are the same. There is no good and bad perciever though, there is only the ones who percieve and the ones who fully consciously percieve. The latter by definition has a more rich constitution. This is true, because at some level we all are interpreting reality, and most interpretation is subconscious. No matter if there is this thing we observe as reality or not, we are putting our own labels, ideas and connections into what enters our experience. We filter information like a silk screen. The key here is getting to know your silk screen. One must look at what is left, what is filtered away, what is before any filtering and what is there afterward. If you can do this you can self reflect, because the obvious consequence of filter reflection is knowledge of oneself in relation to everything.
Knowledge is just as much a burden as a benifit. Many don't want to know what roasts deep beneath the surface because of the harsh potential burdens one might have to face, but no matter what, eveyone must face such information. Left unchecked, said info rotts away until the smell is so bad it seeps into the well sealed vents of the conscious and appears in the oddest of ways. When you reach the level of a rotten mind, a safe trip home is difficult. Expression becomes acting in ways one can't control, wholly the opposite of what one truley wishes.